Wow I am apparently sitting around here crying about how my father’s going to be 75 and nothing I could give him could possibly be good enough, and really overall I feel like he deserves someone way better than me. Because all his friends have had kids who had these great lives and settled down and produced children and shit – and their kids are all 20 years older than I am, and I hardly measure someone’s success by their production of progeny and neither does my family, it’s just that they had children of whom they could be justifiably proud, and I wish I could do that for him. I feel like he deserves to get better than sympathy or catty remarks when I come up. But I know that even though I have a lot of time to do things and have an awesome life and stuff like that, he probably won’t see it, and i wish he could stop working because he deserves that, but the financial crisis blew up both their pension and I’ll never be able to take care of them and –
And now I have makeup all over my face like a giant cliché.
